So Here I am posting for the first time on a blog! Feels weird to be posting on a blog since I have never done something like this before! Lol. Anyway I'm sorry if this is gonna be sloppy on my first post, but here are my feeling about how I am feeling with one month away from now.
My feelings when it comes to everything I have done when I first dreamed of going to Japan to where I am at now with me going to Japan in a month has been one rollercoaster ride for sure. I always loved the Japanese culture as a kid, and I would take Japanese language classes all through out high school to learn how to speak and write in Japanese which is amazing. Honestly I felt a sense of anxiety when it came in believing that I can actually go to Japan, and finally travel away from my home island Oahu for once in my life. All my life I always wished to travel away from this island, but never was able to. Honestly there were roughly three different scenarios where I was close to traveling for once.
The first time I was close to traveling was back in 7th grade where I was a part of robotics club. It was pretty much, where our team won the local championships here on Oahu, and we were chosen to go to California and Compete with other robotic teams throughout the U.S. Pretty amazing right? Well, there was a problem, I was the only person on my team who couldn't go because of budget issues. Of course I took it with a grain of salt and understand why. Fast forward to my 8th grade year, we were qualified again to compete in world finals in California, and I thought I could finally go and travel, but of course I was the ONLY ONE that couldn't go. This time it was "budget issues" and they needed more "important" team members to participate, this hurt me so much I can never forget how depressed I was for that moment.
The Final "Nail in the Coffin" where I pretty much gave up on traveling was 9th grade in high school, where I was, of course, part of the robotics team. As you already get at this point we pretty much won the local tournament here and blah blah, but guess what? I WAS THE ONLY ONE WHO COULD NOT GO! Why? Well now it was simply where I was told in my face that I was not important to the team at all and it hurt me so much. At that point I gave up on my dreams of traveling and decided it would be best to give up trying to travel to Japan altogether.
However, as I started going to HPU and hearing about there study abroad program here, I felt a sense of hope that I can actually go to Japan someday, and after 3 years of asking for info and how there program worked, I felt a sense of relief and joy that I finally was able to do something, that I have dreamed about for so long, and for once I feel like everything I was told in the past has just disappeared. Its been a rollercoaster ride of emotions, and all I can say when I was told that my University in Japan and the study abroad advisors accepted me I finally let out tears of joy knowing that I waited so long for this to happen and its finally happening, no games, no gimmicks!
Anyway I'm sorry if this is a long and emotional first blog, but I just want to leave this by saying, that if you keep on believing and waiting, your time will come. I hope my story Inspires some people who are unsure about traveling or feel like they can't do it, because let me tell you, YOU CAN DO IT. Don't give up. And keep your head up.(^-^)
